Weird.

So I liked this one girl for a long while.

And I think her boyfriend (whom she is now broken up with) may have been/is gay.

Not quite sure what to think about that. On one hand, it's like "wow; I feel so much better about myself now that I can see how pathetic he is" (for basically lying to her and himself by pretending not to be gay).
On the other hand, it's like "she still completely ignored me and dated him for all that time. Does that make me even more pathetic?"