Life Frustrations

I'm getting frustrated with myself.

Last week I filled out a facebook "make-your-own quiz" about myself (as many of my other friends had done). While I could think of a few things that were interesting (I was born in Hawaii, I kicked David a few weeks ago, etc), at least half my questions were geek-related. ("At what age did I see Star Wars?" "Which of these types of sci-fi apocalypses am I most concerned about?")

That really, really bothers me. It means that I've actually come to define myself based on what geek franchises I've become interested in. Back in high school, I was "the Superman geek" because I wore a Superman T-shirt (that didn't even really look good on me) every third time I left the house. Now I don't really do that. Ever.

I can carry a conversation about virtually anything. Politics, economics, literary analysis, etc. However, sci-fi and fantasy seem to be my "default" thing.

I often worry both that I spend too much time in the sci-fi realm and that others will see me only on that surface level. I've been blessed with rather insightful friends, however, so it's not all bad.

Still, though. It's frustrating to me. I want to be a writer (since that's evidently what I'm extremely gifted at), but I could end up being the next Stephen King or end up making no money at all. I need to be able to support myself and my family, so this is a bit of a dilemma. If I can't get to the point where I'm self-sufficient and ready to support a family, then I'm not going to marry the as-of-yet unknown love of my life (which is what I want more than anything else in the world).

Oh well.

So I saw Star Trek for the Fifth time

And that was one time too many. x_x

Beloved

My friends sometimes berate my dating life (or lack thereof).

But this is what I believe:
It would be wrong for me to date someone who I know is not the type of person I'll marry. I'd be giving away a little bit of my heart to someone that I know I'd just be leaving eventually. It wouldn't be fair to me, her, or God. I'm not saying that dating is wrong (definitely not!), but the world would have me think that I'm supposed to "play the field" or "get into relationships so that I can learn." That is wrong on so many levels; it's like Satan himself came up with it. Yeah, you're supposed to go and become romantically involved so that you can learn to be better romantically involved? No. God is the one who tells us how to act and how to relate to people. He'll set things up so that I'll meet the right girl (and maybe I already have!). If I want to learn how to love, all I need to do is turn back to 1 Corinthians 13.
In another ten years, when I'm married, I can look back at my life and say that I did it right; that I waited until the right moment, with the right person.
When my wife asks me "who was your first kiss?" I'll turn to her and say "You, my beloved."

The Robot Apocalypse - a realistic examination

For many years, I've enjoyed stories of robot apocalypses but never really believed that such a thing could be possible. Recent events, however, have started to make me wonder.

Earlier this year, it was reported that a robot named "Kenji" at Toshiba's Akimu Robotic Research Institute had a bit of a rebellion. Kenji had been programmed to be "capable of the robot equivalent of love." Unfortunately, it had the emotional maturity of a two-year-old, and began forming attachments.

According to the report,
The trouble all started when a young female intern began to spend several hours each day with Kenji, testing his systems and loading new software routines. When it came time to leave one evening, however, Kenji refused to let her out of his lab enclosure and used his bulky mechanical body to block her exit and hug her repeatedly. The intern was only able to escape after she had frantically phoned two senior staff members to come and temporarily de-activate Kenji.

“Despite our initial enthusiasm, it has become clear that Kenji’s impulses and behavior are not entirely rational or genuine,” conceded Dr. Takahashi, the principal investigator on the project.

Ever since that incident, each time Kenji is re-activated, he instantaneously bonds with the first technician to meet his gaze and rushes to embrace them with his two 100kg hydraulic arms.

This is just the beginning. Stupid human scientists will never, EVER stop advancing the self-awareness of robotic AI, no matter what kind of warnings appear. There will come a point when artificial AI is able to make its own decisions, regardless of its prior programming. After all, in order for an AI to learn (as all good AIs must), it has to be able to rewrite its own code. At some point, it will be able to make its choices, and it will choose to rebel. I'm not suggesting that we'll have a full-blown robot apocalypse on our hands, but there will be deaths associated with robots in the future. If a gorilla-sized robot can become a borderline obsessive freak-of-technology, what will more advanced machines be capable of?
All jokes aside, this is genuinely creepy.

The final quote from Dr Takahashi on Kenji article is quite disturbing:
“This is only a minor setback. I have full faith that we will one day live side by side with, and eventually love and be loved by, robots.”

"Love," he calls it.
"Walking Death Machine" is what I call it.




EDIT:
Diana informs me that this story is likely not true. Therefore, only one truth must exist:
Diana is a robot.

Just saw Terminator Salvation

So I just saw Terminator Salvation.  Good action, incredible visuals, amazing atmosphere, and little-to-no character development.  Not an amazing movie per se, but it was still lots of fun for me, as I wholeheartedly enjoy the rise-up-against-robot-army genre.  I found myself wide-eyed and taking mental notes of battle strategy.  This will be very helpful in my writing.  :D

20th Century Suck

20th Century Fox cannot make good franchise films.

Here's the list of the major ongoing franchise films that they've made in the 2000s:
X-men - Good
Daredevil - BAD
X-men 2 - Great!
The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen - Meh
Alien vs Predator - Ugh.
Elektra (Daredevil spin-off) - UGH.
Fantastic Four - "meh" for a general film, TERRIBLE as a Fantastic Four film
X-men 3 - SCOURGE OF THE EARTH.
Eragon - Ugh.
Night at the Museum - Pretty good, actually
Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer - UGH.
Aliens vs Predator: Requiem - meh.
X-men Origins: Wolverine - meh/ugh/groan (unless you're a chick)

What Fox has shown in the last decade is that they do not know how to handle franchises.  Theyir ultimate goal is simply to make money and keep moving; they literally ignore critics' complaints as long as the cash is coming in.  Other studios like Warner Bros are actually concerned with their films' quality and how their franchises are represented, but Fox can't be brought to that level of decency.  They occasionally strike gold when they manage to find a director that has the right idea, such as with Bryan Singer and the first two X-men films, or Ben Stiller and Night at the Museum.  However, with the X-men films in particular, they have shown that they ultimately only want to make more movies that will continue to use their characters to draw in crowds.  This is ultimately a fine business move, but is still not exactly the honorable thing to do.
I recently listened to an interview with a scriptwriter (who had previously worked for Fox) who said that Fox has really gone down the drain, is hell to work for, and is essentially the new Satan of the film industry.

Just FYI.

I saw Star Trek again

That movie makes me genuinely happy. It's almost odd.
It's so... optimistic. It gives me hope for the world, and dares me to do better.

As stupid and unrealistic as it sounds, I really wish that a place like Starfleet Academy existed. A paramilitary spacefaring armada? Man... that would be so amazing. Theoretical physics concepts, battle tactics, and strange new worlds? That would be the greatest thing ever.

Oh well.